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Walking the Talk
1/14/2005 @ 127 kg
The Talk: The 'Ides' of March, May, July, or October fall on the 15th, according to the ancient Roman calendar. For this month the 13th (and the next seven days) are the 'Ides'. For me, Shakespeares line "Beware the Ides of March" is a Raven's call warning. Spring will soon be here, and with it I want to feel healthy again.
For many of us the New Year has hardly set in yet, nor has any resolution made on the eve seen fruition. I feel I have been granted a reprise for sins committed, in my usual self-indulgent seasonal celebrations, and I must strong-arm myself now, into initiating a plan of attrition.
This morning I had four pieces of buttered rye toast and a cup of coffee (milk and sugar substitute). I can hardly feel hopeful about any diet, yet I have no real choice but to stop my downward spiral with both my size and health. Eating a bit less, and then a bit less more, and then eventually getting down to reasonable proportions of whole foods, is not revolutionary in concept. Yet, for me, this sounds herculean.
To illustrate how poor my physical condition has become, just walking out to the car, and returning upstairs, and then scrubbing a toilet, has left me short of breath and wheezing. Some of my condition is due in part to having avoided exercise, while crippled with gout for over a month, and in part for having to lug around my own body weight. Obviously exercise, lots and lots of moderately paced exercise, built up continuously during the coming weeks, is essential.
Yet my plans for the day are typical of my life style. Today is computer based work, and a possible drive from Shiga to Amagasaki (a two hour jaunt each way)... Hardly a plan for vascular rejuvenation. Somewhere I need to convince myself to move more and eat less, yet the ruts below my feet run deep, and my heart winces at the prospect of being physical again. I know this will change as I resist the inertia and begin to allow the blood more fresh air.
I just wish I could show more enthusiasm.
Walking the Talk
1/18/2005 @ 127 kg
I do not see myself taking any anitiative in fighting an obsessive appetite. I have just a few days of classes and then I will be free to begin. But I will need a plan, some rules, guide posts to know what to eat...Atkins...an on-line diet such as Cyberdiet or DietSite...The South Beach Diet...etc?
How we lose weight
"The simple weight loss formula is to take in fewer calories than you use. This can be achieved through becoming more physically active or by eating less. Weight loss programs that include more physical activities and decrease the amount of calories that you eat is most likely to lead to successful weight loss." from healthyweightforum.org
Good advice from Barbara's corner:
How I Learned how not to choose a diet.
How I got to be soo overweight
Weight Loss Psychology
Thayer White MA MFT author of Be Your Own Therapist
Brainwashing Diet Programs
Week 1. Just use the VIP affirmation (400-500X daily - insert your own goal weight) "I weigh ____ and notice my eating behaviors."
Week 2. After the first week, you may choose to substitute a different ending to the first week's affirmation; for example "I weigh ____ pounds and this is what I look like" (while looking at a photo of slender you/someone-else).
Brainwashing Lite Affirmations:
Instead, use process affirmations and/or short-term-goal affirmations. Process affirmations: "I notice my food behaviors. I savor each mouthful at lunch." Short-term-goal affirmations: "I have 5 servings of fruits and vegetable a day. I drink a glass of water before each meal, etc. First of all, affirmations must be positive and forward-going, something you wish to have happen (i.e. manifest). They are your goals, things you wish for, things you desire. Speaking them out loud is always best!
2/15/2005 @ 127kg
Today the only motivation to get out of the house is grocery shopping. Television a primary distraction. How does this happen? Simply because sugar and greasy fats work easily. Popular pap, with a sprinkling of world events neutered by CNN in fear of federal disapproval, distracts conveniently. So refocus on paperwork, housekeeping, and get out with a cleared desktop.
While I lust for distraction, best I take hard looks at my paperwork and plans for next term. Off I go to the shops, and back to the mundane.
If given a chance, I do not take it, except to retreat into a state of neutrality. There is guilt associated with this fact... but there is an understanding that this too is a truth. When my mind expands to consider returning to filmmaker, my appreciation for the enormity of the task becomes witness to how silly my aspiration is.
The seeds of despair, perhaps responsible for the large number of suicides among senior citizens, appears tired to this reality of futility. When we were young, the same degree of futility existed, yet thanks to romantic enthusiasm and a lack of 'practical' sense, we were free to pursue the most outlandish of fantasies.
Now I have material resources and know how I could only hope for as a youth, yet I also lack physical flexibility and endurance, so the fantasies are as valid, as are the impossibilities. The glass remains filled half way, only our perspective shifts from full to empty.
Inspired by the positivism of Dr. Wayne Dyer I attempt to write an appreciative letter confirming my positive feelings toward Japan. I ended up writing a rather tongue-in-cheek confessional, a reoccurring voice I fall into when I write about my world.
What I Love about Japan
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