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9/8/2004
122 kg

There is no bottom to the negative feelings I experience every day, about being heavy again, except that I may have topped out at my highest weight. In clearer terms, I am heavy but even I can not allow this to go any further. I could be wrong, but signs show that this weight, living within my conventional dietary choices, lingers around 122 kg. This doesn't change the facts, I am most likely 25 kg over my optimum weight, and seriously challenging my health.

This summer I started to experience the symptoms most people dread, shortness of breath and chest restrictions.

I keep praying (if endless reflection qualifies as prayer) that I will have a vision. Right now I imagine another pilgrimage, like the one that inspired my coming to Japan, the 88 temples of Shikoku. To walk myself to health again. But this walk was done after months of preparation and lasted 50 days. So here is the psychological trap, faced by my mother and most over weight people with family and professional commitments. How do I live inside my life, and all its patterns and time restrictions? Yet outside all the unproductive old habits that keep me fat...
I wait to see what I will do to crawl out of this emotional quagmire and feel whole again.


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