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2/1/2004
116 kg

The last year of dieting has been a long journey of statistically predictable behavior. I went around and came around, back to where I began, having experienced the full spectrum of emotions and trials associated universally with dieting.

This morning I prepared a beautiful breakfast for my children. But it reflected no great dietary insights. It simply tasted delicious and my kids seemed satisfied. Onions and garlic, stir fried in olive oil. Home fried potatoes. Scrambled eggs on toast. Tomorrow I will join a friend at a work-out gym. A chance to see a friend and to try a new form of exercising.

I love checking my e-mail and working on web pages, while watching television. I am generally bored silly with most forms of exercise. Obviously, since I also use a car, a practical necessity for all my chores, I retain a common but dangerous life style. I do not see any solid alternative.

My only remedy, for now, is to watch. To watch and listen to my inner and outer voices. To watch and try and understand why I do what I do, why I eat what I eat, why I avoid certain constructive behavior, favoring old patterns of comfort, despite a growing internal discomfort. This mental chorus needs eventually to find a choir leader with a clear aesthetic vision. For now it is more the howling of cats in the back alley of my head.

There is a pragmatic wisdom available in pop culture therapies with such new-age Guru teachers as Anthony Robbins, Dr.Deepak Chopra, and Wayne Dyer. I listen to these teachers on my iPod as I run my errands, listen as my ancestors once pensively listened to sermons in church. Spiritual solutions for a man rooted in his gratifications and pleasure seeking principals.

Perseverance, that is all I can suggest, until I am willing to surrender to a specific plan, again. Perhaps in small prayers I will find a workable solution to an ongoing failing.

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